Introduction

  I consider myself to be a lot of things.  For starters, I am 22 about to start my first year at law school and I'm slightly terrified of the idea.  I’ve wanted to go to law school ever since I was 7 years old and now the dream is about to come true.  I’m also a sister, a daughter, a great friend, an athlete, a beach bum, a caffeine addict, a party girl, and a hopeless romantic who’s a bit jaded these days.  The adjective that I’m most consumed by these days, however, is bulimic.  Yes, I am bulimic and I have been since I was 13 years old.  It has been a secret burden I’ve carried around until recently.  In October 2010 I sought help and shared the secret for the first time in my life.  I entered into a new classification of recovering bulimic.  This is a stage that can be just as long and tormenting as when I was alone and no one knew at all.  I don’t know if or when I will be able to look back and say “I used to be bulimic”, but most days I do know I want to get to the point when I am a recovered bulimic. 

   I am going to be very vivid in the tellings of my story, but in doing so I do not wish for this blog to be anyone’s “thinspiration”.  I also do not wish to trigger anyone, but I know that it is a real possibility.  Please be aware of yourself in reading what I write. 

  These writings are only supposed to be an account of what I have experienced and continue to experience in my struggles with this disease.  I do not intend to discourage anyone, but to uplift.  Knowledge of others who are fighting eating disorders as well, no matter how different the story, can be very comforting.  No one has to struggle through recovery alone.  Let me share my story with you; the past secretive days and the present recovery days with a hope for the future.  I will be here for you and I hope I can depend on you to be there for me as well, Through Thick and Thin. 

<3 Annie Ames